BileFriendship not worth spitting on.
A vicious smile to hide contempt.
Your eyes glitter with apathy.
Thank god I don't love you.
Smash my face with nothing.
Drown me with harsh silence.
Burn my skin under empty sky.
I'm lucky we're not even enemies.
Run to the other side of my heart.
A cold chill in the bottom of my stomach.
Limp smoke fills my empty lungs.
I gladly sneer at your memory.
You fell so damn far.
How could you fail me?
Two faces, but you wear them well.
I didn't even get to put you on a pedastal.
You turn away.
I couldn't tell.
Your eyes were elsewhere.
My heart is nowhere.
You can go away now.
Got Some Medicine...And its for that cold in your heart.
The cold you've been nursing for me since I told you the truth.
The truth I finally told you that I should have said a year ago.
A year ago that made me hate you.
I hated you because everything else sucked.
It sucked cuz I never told you.
Never told you till a year later.
A year later when I stopped caring about you.
Since I didn't care about you it was easy to tell the truth.
The truth about the cold you've been nursing in your heart.
And your heart needs some medicine...
That's the thing, isn't it? That's the insidious wheel, the relentless motion of life. It's got me under its tread. Buried under the monotonies of life. The boredom of tomorrow. Lost opportunities of yesterday. The endless present. I can feel it behind my eyes. Between my teeth. I swallow another breath of room temperature air. I get back to work. Back to the purgatory of now.
I can see the horizon, and its gray. No highs or lows. And a part of me accepts it with a frigid joy. A plateau of acceptance. A perfect block of self-pity.
I indulge in defeat.
Another deep breath.